I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me and throw me away
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted I could be
Now you know me and I'm not afraid
And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here

They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin'
While I keep on dreamin' for me
And their words are just whispers and lies
That I'll never believe

And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can they say i'll never change?
They're the ones that stay the same
I'm the one now
'Cause I'm still here

I'm the one now
Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

Manifesto Ultimatum: Day 30

**Disclaimer: Connor is not actually posting this. Obviously he's on a mission. He wrote me, Eliza, a letter and asked me to post this draft for him. So here we go.**

 

 

A Letter to Me.

Dear Connor,

I love how you make sense of your world. People, dreams, days, stars-all come together in a perfect way.

I love how you genuinely care about people. Heaven knows that you can be quick to judge, but you always try to find the good in the people that bother you.

I love how there are dreams stuck in your head that won't leave. Dreams that will become reality because you've got the guts, the passion, and the drive to make it all happen. Don't give up on the things you want. Because they might be the things you need too. God knows what is important to you, and it is important to him as well.

I love how much you care for your family.

I love the way you think about your friends. The way you spend time with them.

I love how much you trust your instincts. Period.

Mostly, I love how comfortable you are with yourself. You're not perfect, but that's just the way I like it. I love how you can look in the mirror, smile so big that you make yourself laugh, and then walk out the door to a perfect day because you've already decided that's how it ends.

Stay golden.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today"

Love, Connor James White