I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me and throw me away
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted I could be
Now you know me and I'm not afraid
And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here

They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin'
While I keep on dreamin' for me
And their words are just whispers and lies
That I'll never believe

And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can they say i'll never change?
They're the ones that stay the same
I'm the one now
'Cause I'm still here

I'm the one now
Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

Manifesto Ultimatum: Day 30

**Disclaimer: Connor is not actually posting this. Obviously he's on a mission. He wrote me, Eliza, a letter and asked me to post this draft for him. So here we go.**

 

 

A Letter to Me.

Dear Connor,

I love how you make sense of your world. People, dreams, days, stars-all come together in a perfect way.

I love how you genuinely care about people. Heaven knows that you can be quick to judge, but you always try to find the good in the people that bother you.

I love how there are dreams stuck in your head that won't leave. Dreams that will become reality because you've got the guts, the passion, and the drive to make it all happen. Don't give up on the things you want. Because they might be the things you need too. God knows what is important to you, and it is important to him as well.

I love how much you care for your family.

I love the way you think about your friends. The way you spend time with them.

I love how much you trust your instincts. Period.

Mostly, I love how comfortable you are with yourself. You're not perfect, but that's just the way I like it. I love how you can look in the mirror, smile so big that you make yourself laugh, and then walk out the door to a perfect day because you've already decided that's how it ends.

Stay golden.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today"

Love, Connor James White

Manifesto Ultimatum: Day 12

Post your favorite commercial ever and something people seem to compliment you on.

 

Ok this is the best version I could find on YouTube. I like it a lot.

People compliment me on....? This is slightly awkward, but then again, I am the one who made the challenge, so I have no room to talk.

People like my teeth. Me too.

Also, I have a teeth fetish. And yes I just said fetish and it's fine. It's the first thing I notice on someone. I can tell you right now what any of my friends teeth look like. I could probably draw them. Sometimes, I secretly wish I had crooked teeth, ya know? They've got character. Seriously, aske me sometime and I'll just list off my favorite people with favorite teeth. Teeth people.

 

 

Who says I can’t get stoned?
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me in my house alone
Who says I can’t get stoned?

Who says I can’t be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Rewrite my history
Who says I can’t be free?

Manifesto Ultimatum: Day 11

A book and a movie you love.

East of Eden is perfect.
James Dean for one thing. If you're kind of a fiend like me, then watching this movie will make your jaw drop at brilliance of the man. He literally is flawless and the rest of the cast is actually perfect too. But honestly, I could watch this movie a million times. The story is so good and when Cal takes the money that he made to his father and he rejects it? Saddest thing. Please watch it with me. Easily in the top three.

What's Eating Gilbert Grape is perfect.
I saw the movie first, and I when I found out there was a book, I promptly got my hands on a copy. I'm one of those weird people that likes to read the book of the movie, even if I've already seen it. Also, this is really my favorite movie but why would I blog about the book and the movie? Ugh, I probably would. But not today. Anyhoo, I read this book in one day. Guys, that's a big deal for me. Heavens knows I'm a book lover, but my brain is usually incapable of such a long time with the written word. I am Gilbert Grape. Besides his awesome hair. That's really all there is to know. Unless you've read it, I really can't talk about how good it is or else you just won't understand. Take my word for it.And Addy, if you're reading this, I need my book back.

Both of these make me feel human.

Where there is desire there is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try

Manifest Ultimatum: Day 10

Ways to win your heart, songs you sing in the shower, items you lust after, words/phrases that make you laugh and reasons to hate you. Five of each (at least).


Ways to Win My Heart

1. Dream big, be incredibly down to earth, and have passion for life. (Not too much to ask, right??)

2. Accept all my interests and outlets.

3. Eat food and go to the theatre with me.

4. Rub my back.

5. Sing with me and listen to all types of music.

Songs I Sing in the Shower

1. "When We Die" by Bowling For Soup

2. "Listen" by Beyonce

3. "It Takes Two" from Hairspray

4. "What a Catch, Donnie" by Fall Out Boy

5. "Smoky Mountain Memories" by Dolly Parton/David Archuleta

Items I Lust After

1. Clothing. Specifically shoes.

2. TV shows on DVD

3. James Dean memorabilia (weird, I know)

4. Sheet music

5. Cool editions of all my favorite books. Just books, I guess.

Words/Phrases That Make Me Laugh

1. "hoot and a half"

2. "stop being so FREAKin' hilarious"

3. "complete fiend"

4. "psycho"

5. *censored phrase* Ask me if you really want to know.

Reasons To Hate Me

1. I touched Kelly Clarkson's hand.

2. I'm the kid who forgets it's test day but still aces the test.

3. I eat whatever I want and don't gain a pound.

4. Future Sexiest Man Alive Winner.

5. My body doesn't really sleep. In a good way.

Bye.